Okay in order to wanting to get sober you have to experience the hell it's out you threw like mine I lost my family my job my truck ended back up in jail got 2 drug charges and other criminals charges I got for trying to get my next fix like when is enough enough for you so you have to have the will and the power to stand up for yourself and stand firm in what u believe in (mine is God leaning on him and trusting him to make my next move without having to understanding it he guides my course daily)