I wish I wasnt me I wish my dad wasnt abusive I wish my mom was there for me, I miss my brother, my boss is so toxic, my ex used me and discarded … no true friends, i feel isolated most of the time carrying loads of whats not mine but expected to carry so I dont get hurt even more. On paper I have what all think is great but its compensation to feel valuable when those who pretend to care for me only see me worth it when I do what they want. When I am human I am punished and its a cycle. I feel empty even if I have a future because I dont feel safe inside