Does not just come from mom it comes from self. Realizing how much of mom is in us. The things we don't like about her and the things we admire about her. But the things that shaped us as a whole. DO you know you picked that lady to be your womg carrier. Yes your re-entry soul picked her from another one of your life times when you knew her. She could have been a sister in a pass life, a auntie, a grandma, a god mother, and you saw something in her that you wanted to learn. You wanted to be in her to be her to grow with her. It is the life you chose, we don't know this because a lot of us are stuck blaming MOM for every little thing that goes wrong in life and never look for the lesson. (Lesson to Leasting the burden of not knowing) We grow with each one we learn from and it never stops. The most hurting part about growing is not getting the healing the firs time. That is when we find our self in aloop. The loop of going through the same problems or lessons with other people in different bodys, places, and time. A lot of us don't even want to do the shadow work to even know who we were and who are to become. Plenty of time we ask the question what am I doing here, or what is my purpose to being here. Then the other question why is she my mom. We start picking on her and picking away at her. But we never want to do the work our selves to know why.

Most of my siblings are gone over to thier for ever life. I thought about them on a deeper level. My older brother died young in his early twenties. I gave him tribe to him by naming my son after him. I remember my older brother soft manner, his quiet anger and his slow to response to many of life chaotic moments. I also remember him following his crowd of friends wanting to fit in. Wanting to be notice and wanting to just be heard. He and I spent plenty of nights just talking about him. His wants, dreams, and who he felt he should have been born up under. HE felt like his parents should have wanted him more, loved him harder and just listen to him. I think about his name sake my son. My son Reginald Leroy Martin, his soft manner but his need to be wanted, love and heard. I asked him plenty of question brought plenty of his wants to try to get to him in ways that I was missing. My son and I would have deep talks about me and love. I would ask him about his love life. He was my brother in another body. At times I can not help the feeling that I failed them both in life. My brother as a sister, My son as a mother, cause the need for them to fit in was more important then the need to just be themself. Tell me a story about your sister or brother.

I am going live soon to talk to one of my students that is going through the process of healing from the mother womb and what she is experincing through this process. How talking to her mom and sister is changing a lot for her. Helping her heal and have a deeper love for those women. How she is seeing things from their point of view and not just being the one who is hurt.

We talked about physical pain that is not really there. Some doctors call it phantom pains, or we used to say growing pains. But what it the emotional hurt is so bad it can only come out in you neck hurting, shoulder aches, and back pain. What about a low tummy pain or your uterus contracting like you were in child birth. HUmmmma lets talk about it. 😊🥰

DO YOu really know where that back pain comes from IN healing from the womb we recognize pain. WE carry pain differently. It comes from wear and tear of the body as a whole. So we think, sometimes spiritual pain shows up physically. I remember having pain in my shoulders when I was married. I had to realize I was carrying a lot of the financial burden by my self. And this was showing up on my shoulders. I did not allow my husband to take over or control of our finances. I knew he could not articulate how to pay bills nor budget things for us to have for rest of the days ahead after bills were paid. I also had back pain, thoart pain but all of this was not really something that the doctor could cure. There was no pill to help me. I had to learn a lot of this pain was caused because of stress and lack of spiritual release. Not letting go and realizing I needed to release a lot of things through meditation and healing. So please tell me about your pain. Lets talk about it