Something God Taught Me About Learning Theology
A little while back I had a desire to go deeper in my understanding of Scripture. With the constantly shifting sands of culture, I felt a strong pull to gain greater clarity and perspective on many of the issues we’re facing today from a truly biblical perspective. I’ve always had that desire to varying degrees, but God was doing something new. At some point as I was thinking and praying about what to do about this pull, I felt the Holy Spirit prod me with the idea- “obey what I’ve already shown you”. Even though overall I felt like I was living aligned with Scripture, there was one nagging area of my life I was struggling with that I essentially did not want to surrender to Lord. It was not an area that I wanted to willfully disobey, but it was something I was struggling to figure out how to obey. So I began praying that God would help me. In this case, I had to realize I could not obey this particular truth from Scripture in my own strength. I needed His help. And He worked on me. He always seems to give me the grace to obey His Word when I am truly willing. It brought me great peace and joy when I began to obey even though it was counter to how I felt in my flesh. Fast forward to last week I was watching something where professing Christians were debating ethical topics. I was sitting there thinking, “How do these so called Christians have such confusion over what Scripture teaches even though they seem to have a reasonable knowledge of it?” I was reminded about what the Holy Spirit had prodded me on months earlier and something I’ve been reading in a Christian Ethics book lately: Our own disobedience can deceive us and limit our ability to understand Scripture properly. James 1:22 says “Be doers of the Word and not hearers only, deceiving yourselves”. The implication here is that we can know a lot about the Bible and still not truly understand it, not because it's unclear, but because of our own disobedience to it. That was a revelation to me. That truth has helped me develop a healthier fear of the Lord in the sense that I always need to be striving to obey Scripture in my quest to learn more of it and to avoid heeding voices who claim to know a lot about Scripture but who’s lives aren’t a reflection of it.