Just because I teach you how to manage your thoughts, doesn't mean I have it all figured out - it just means I've been doing this work longer and can maybe identify subtle thoughts more quickly! The past few weeks have been tough - the exhaustion was over the top and my nervous system feels like it's on high alert! Initially I chalked it up to a wkend out of town, and then one day it hit me "IT'S JULY" - And immediately I sensed a shift. Sometimes it's the actual naming of something that brings a sense of calm, and then you can get curious and begin exploring the thoughts, emotions, and memories of that season. For the last number of years I thought my July overwhelm was tied to us moving 5 years ago and all that that season brought, but last week I realized it went back even further, to 7 years ago and feeling like we were homeless. 7 years ago we were in contract and our house was sold... 12 days before our moving date, the contract we were in fell apart and we were left without a home. We had 4 kids under 8 and while in the moment, we survived and did the next thing, I realize now, that season left a huge mark. Our pastor very graciously offered us, a temporary less then 1000 square ft basement apartment to live in until we found another space to rent, which ended up being about 2 months. All of that to say, your body and brain will store many memories in your subconscious for a long time, until you are safe enough with yourself to peel back another layer of your story. That's why I teach the power of awareness. Tuning in to yourself... where does this exhaustion come from? What am I feeling in my body? Why does my brain feel like a dumpster fire? When you gain awareness and start exploring with curiosity, you may be surprised at the thoughts thoughts and feelings that surface. Don't push them away or avoid them, thinking there's no connection. And remember, YOUR FEELINGS ARE NOT WRONG - They are simply data - information to be explored. What feelings are you carrying this week? Where in your body are you feeling it?