I used to think growth would feel exciting.
Empowering. Motivating.
Like I’d wake up every day with new energy and a fresh mindset.
But the truth is… a lot of my real growth hasn’t felt like that at all.
It’s felt like confusion.
Like doubt.
Like wondering if I’m doing the right thing even when I know I am.
Like shedding old versions of myself without fully knowing who the new version is yet.
This season of my life has been the most “in-between” I’ve ever felt…
and somehow, also the most important.
Because here’s the part I kept avoiding for years:
Growth isn’t the big breakthrough.
It’s the slow, quiet moments where your old self doesn’t fit
and your new self hasn’t fully arrived.
I’m building Whole Life 180.
I’m showing up online.
I’m creating programs that are changing people’s lives.
But behind the scenes?
There are days I feel stretched.
Days I question if anyone is watching.
Days I feel the weight of trying to balance being a dad, a creator, and a human who still has fears.
But something is shifting.
For the first time, I’m not trying to “power through.”
I’m trying to stay present.
I’m learning to not judge myself for being in transition.
I’m learning to breathe through the moments where clarity hasn’t arrived yet.
And weirdly enough…
that’s where the real breakthroughs have happened.
Not in the highlight moments.
But in the moments where I’m sitting with the uncomfortable parts.
The doubt.
The uncertainty.
The version of me I’m outgrowing.
If you’re in a similar season
where you’re becoming someone new but you can’t fully see it yet …
I want you to know:
You’re not behind.
You’re in the middle of a rewrite.
And that’s exactly where transformation happens.
…. The marathon continues …