When you've been dealing with a chronic symptom for a long time, something quiet and painful can happen alongside the physical suffering. You start to identify as a sick person. A tired person. A person with "issues." The symptom becomes the headline of your story.
And slowly, without anyone meaning for it to happen, your parallel wellness gets eroded. The part of you that is a gifted being, a creative force, a person with something to give the world, that part gets buried under the weight of trying to get better.
That's a big loss. And it's one that shame makes worse, because shame says: "You can't show up until you're better, healed, or fixed."
But you are not only your symptoms. You never were.
This week's reflection:
π Think about a physical struggle you've been carrying, something chronic or recurring. Now ask yourself honestly: "Who would I be if I wasn't trying to make this go away?" Not "who would I be if it disappeared," but who are you, right now, alongside it? How would you move through the world differently? What gifts, passions, and ways of being have gotten buried under the effort of managing this? What do you want to reclaim?
You don't have to wait until you're healed to remember your wholeness. π
xo, Amanda