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I want the people who join here to know a bit about me. I have had a very difficult life. And this journey has served to teach me so much about myself. I am not by any means living in some castle on a hill. In fact, I live in my RV full time! I want to eventually be mobile but for now I am stationary and work almost full time as a local Dunkin barista! Yes, I can make a mean Java!
But I'm so much more than that. I am a single mother for one. Originally from Rhode Island, I have dedicated my life to my kids and that is where my own career path became one that faded into the distance as I raised them. So I had a means to end job to provide for them and now, I am finally stepping into the time frame where I can focus on some other very important things to me.
My children now, all early teens, go between their father in AR and myself in FL. My son was with me for a good 6 or 7 months homeschooling this past year. He is with his dad and sisters now and my daughters will be returning soon! I can't wait! They decided to stay the year for school and though it broke my heart, I knew they needed to have some time to make friends and get settled in a life he made for them there. And I had a lot on my plate here! So I am living life and we make it work.
The time now has come for me to focus on 5 years of a very deep journey I've been on. Truthfully it started WAY before that and that is where this matters to me most. Since I was very young, I had abilities. I saw spirits. I had visions. I was a strange child who had a little too much of an interest in death. I used to find dead insects and bury them between the stepping stones of my grandfather's house. Returning them to the earth. Why did I do that? So weird for a child of 8 or 9, but I did.
I grew up being bullied in school. Life was miserable for me there. I was often physically attacked. I was different. I had ADHD and Im realizing now that perhaps I may have a spectrum of autism. But nothing that would debilitate me. I was high functioning and always in another world. I felt like school was a smothering institution and that what I was learning wasn't going to serve me. They didn't focus on my strengths, they only complained about my weaknesses. And my strengths could have made me famous! If anyone had cared!
I am a singer, musician, writer, poet, artist (of various mediums) actress and if there is anything I haven't tried of the arts yet, I'm all in to try! But it is a cut throat world to make much of yourself in these ways! It just is what it is, starving artist is a phrase for a reason. But I also had a deep love of ancient things. I used to paint my walls with Ancient Egyotian art and at 16, I got the one and only tattoo I have to this day! And Ancient Egyptian Ankh! A symbol of life.
This symbol tied me to a fate I never imagined for myself back then. And 15 years later, I lived in Egypt and married one of them. At the time I had been studying and practicing Islam for a year. We had our 3 kids and they are half Egyptian! The ankh was a fertility symbol and symbolized life itself. Funny how it lead me to live in the lands of it's origin and have 3 kids to continue the lines of it's people! Their dad and I divorced. I later became agnostic again as I felt this path wasn't fitting me. And then that is when everything changed!
Back track to my earlier years, I did truly try to be a Christian. I went to Sunday classes a hand full of times. My parents didn't go to church. One was raised catholic, one Protestant and they didn't really bother to raise us by anything strictly. I was never baptized. And I'm so grateful for that. However, if you look in the Cairo archives for Muslims, I did sign their document as a registered Muslim there. I suppose they should now strike me from their list!
Part of me wonders if the true connection to the ancient pagan gods of old happened the moment I laid down inside of Cheops tomb in the king's chamber of the Great Pyramid of Giza. I crossed my arms over my chest and laid in the darkness, closing my eyes, hearing voices echoing in the chamber and something, something in me just felt profoundly connected to something else. I cant explain it better than that!
Who's to say what might awaken us to see beyond the wool that has been pulled over our eyes for centuries now. But the ancient gods are not dead. They are alive and they have been calling me my whole life! My mother and grandmother practiced Tarot, and I picked up the skill in my teens. It has been with me ever since! I now work with runes as well. I have predicted things I wish I didn't. And I cant explain that either other than to say, I am wide open to the spirit realm and always have been even when I didn't know it!
It was there always, guiding me. Taking me on a learning journey! And now the more I learn and dig in, the more I realize, Im remembering. Remembering a whole reality so few are aware even exists! And I now look to an animistic worldview no longer bound by the lies and empirical thinking and institutionalization, nationalization, all the dogma, all the conformity and caging of the autonomous being that we are.
I have more to say but for now, Ill leave it at this! I am a very deeply spiritual person and believe that the way our ancestors understood things was the truth of our world. And the ways we have been cut off are absolutely a tragedy! We need to remember what we are doing on this planet! What our purpose is and always has been! And I know that my ancestors will speak to me and help me find the way that will help others find this path of freedom as well!
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