An epiphany came to me today thanks to Skool.
I had left a group out of embarrassment. I felt like I had done something wrong.
The leader of the group checked in with me via Chat. His doing so prompted a confession of embarrassment. Shining a light on why I left.
And as I was in Chat confessing, it hit me that I could have practiced self-forgiveness (or maybe asked for pardon) and I overlooked the possibility entirely. (This is a tangent, but I am reminded of the traditional Japanese culture where guilt isn't emphasized but when you lose face, that's the end, there's no coming back. But in this case, it was that the possibility of forgiving myself just didn't land on the radar.)
When reflecting on this right afterwards, I couldn't help but wonder how many times I've overlooked this, how many times running away was the only path I saw, when all along there was another path I could choose.
(Probably countless times. And I may never know for I wouldn't have been aware of what I was doing at the time.)