You loved me as a baby nurtured me to grow. At 15 didn’t see eye-to-eye it was more toe- to-toe Both stubborn in our ways but you held your ground I was drowning in the new knowledge I thought I had found. You kept loving me through it all, in every single stage. You as mom me as rebel teen both on a different page. I got on drugs you chose to step in for the boys. You were angry and I couldn’t hear through the noise. You banned me from them which to me was cruel. Like you were high and mighty sitting on a pedestal. At that moment all I felt from you felt like hate. But that’s just the way my brain worked in that state. All I could do is pray and ask God why, why? He showed me but the reality made me cry. Reality was she had shown love all along. But all I could see was her doing me wrong. She was showing me love and how it’s steady. I finally could accept, once sober I was ready. Love doesn’t always look like we think it should. Sometimes it’s painful but in the end was good. CDK 02-12-26