You loved me as a baby nurtured me to grow.
At 15 didn’t see eye-to-eye it was more toe- to-toe
Both stubborn in our ways but you held your ground
I was drowning in the new knowledge I thought I had found.
You kept loving me through it all, in every single stage.
You as mom me as rebel teen both on a different page.
I got on drugs you chose to step in for the boys.
You were angry and I couldn’t hear through the noise.
You banned me from them which to me was cruel.
Like you were high and mighty sitting on a pedestal.
At that moment all I felt from you felt like hate.
But that’s just the way my brain worked in that state.
All I could do is pray and ask God why, why?
He showed me but the reality made me cry.
Reality was she had shown love all along.
But all I could see was her doing me wrong.
She was showing me love and how it’s steady.
I finally could accept, once sober I was ready.
Love doesn’t always look like we think it should.
Sometimes it’s painful but in the end was good.
CDK
02-12-26