How I stopped a feeling of anxiety to messed up my day!

Here is the story, I choose to share it because I know some of us may experience the same kind of scenario and we can learn from each other.

I participated this week in a gathering where an renowned Apostole came. Before that I fasted, prayed and asked God to speak to me through him.

I was able to free my schedule for the 2 days outpouring meetings.

I was prepare, I was ready and nothing could stop me. I even asked God to touch the Apostole so he can call my name.

So the expected day came I got there early, I even talkedwith one of the participant and make an agreement with her to viedo each other when we get call.

Fueled with excitement and expectation I was all in. The waited moment came about and I let it passed me by. Someone else rushed in and claimed hers and I was standing there with a look of surprise questioning if it was really me that he called because in my asking I was to specific instead of letting God be God.

I felt it was me he called upon and I let doubt take it away from me.

During the rest of the 2 days I was hopping that he will call me again and that didn't happened.

During this whole time until now, I had this feeling of lost, of missing something that I came closed to. I felt mad, pissed at myself and all.kind of emotions took over me. I was even having physically feeling of anxiety.

I wrote to Nekesha this morning to get in contact with me because I was going through the feelings and I wanted it to stop, I wanted to understand why this happened.

I will say Holly Spirit came upon me and reminded me to talk to my feelings, I took few deep breaths like Nekesha thought us and I repeated few times with my hand on my heart (Peace be still, and know that I am God (3 times).

After few minutes I was working on something and to my amazement I realized that the uneasy feelings were gone.

The lessons that came out of this whole thing

is that I already know what I wanted the Apostole to tell me. It is like God telling me that I didn't needed the Apostole, I have all the answer within me. I don't need no one approval.

The power is in you. And the teachings these 2 days was about empowering us to remember that we have all its takes and nothing is missing.

I believe I went there to proove to myself that I am that I am, I have all I need to live a life of purpose and be in control of me and my life and to let go and let God lead in everything.

And eventhough I had experiences and breakthroughs in my life that showed me that all is well, a part of me still wanted to hear it from someone else.

So brothers and sisters, this life journey will take us on all type of experiences to bring us back to the begging us. We are truly creators of our destiny.

Let love these experiences, because they are our partners and once we get it that we dont need to go all around but just to become centered, take back our power. And by doing so, it will be an amazing trip and adventure of a life time.

Happy Thursday to all! 😀❤️😀

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How I stopped a feeling of anxiety to messed up my day!