I don't think I've introduced myself yet. I just turned 33 and I don't have my life together the way I want. I have a job but I still live with my parents. I've never had a girlfriend, but I recently started seeing a girl. That's interesting. First time really being with a girl I don't know what to do and I already messed it up by being too overzealous to spend time with her. She went no contact with me for 3 months and messaged me to hang out after not seeing her for that long. I thought I'd never see her again.
I talked to my therapist about it and he said I let my anxiety control me, like a self fulfilling prophecy, because I was anxious she might not have liked me anymore I pushed her away to not like me for a bit. But I'm back with her now. She went through a really bad relationship recently and she's not ready for a relationship right now, but she likes me and loves to kiss me.
Other than that I was thinking of doing a security services program at a college and to move into doing security work.