WTF went LIVE on FaceBook!

I would love this little corner to be a safe place to cry, vent, grieve, and just be there to support others. For now, since we are so new, we will try to keep it all under this tab. You can just add the "general idea" of what's bothering you in the title of your post. A few examples: "Survivor of Suicide Loss" "Domestic Violence" "Sexual Abuse" "Phobias" "Addictions" "Loss of Child" "Loss of Spouse or S/O" "Etc., etc., etc..."

A couple of days ago marked the 34th year that my brother commit suicide. Suicide has got to be the most guilty rendering for the survivors. It seems like no matter where you were or what you were doing, you will still find a way to feel partly responsible. Let me be the first to tell you (in here anyway) that no matter what you did, didn't do, say or didn't say, you have nothing to feel guilty about. You will never heal properly as long as you are carrying that weight on your shoulders. What are your beliefs? Mine is that only our bodies truly die. Our soul is free and can communicate with us in some ways. I talk to my brother like he was sitting right next to me. I talk about whatever is on my mind in that moment. "Why? Why did you do this to your family? Your son was only three. Your little sister just got married a couple of weeks before. You were doing so well, you had a good job, solid rides back and forth, and you got to visit your son whenever you wanted. So, why? You took the cowardly way out!!! When shit got tough, you killed yourself. Do you know what that did to our mother? Your selfish actions ruined her life. Why? I love you and miss you! I would have done anything to help you! Im so sorry that I wasn't there, and I'm sorry for calling you selfish. Im just so lost. I love you, Brian. I really love and miss you!"