Healing, Weight, and the Truth No One Likes to Talk About

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Jan 27 • Wins!

This is probably NOT one of those inspirational stories you come across; it's a work in progress. I wanted to share it because healing is not a straight line... It's a journey with ups and downs, twists and turns.

I started gaining weight in my late 30s. At first, I did what many of us do.

Crash diets. Lose 20 pounds. Gain it back. Repeat.

Each time it got harder. Slower. More frustrating.

What I did not realize was that I was fighting symptoms, not the root cause.

There is always more to our weight story.

I have been living with fibromyalgia, autoimmunity, and chronic inflammation for most of my 30s and 40s. I had flare-ups, but my regular Reiki and Energy practice had kept them to a minimum.

Then in 2020, I got sick in a way that brought all of it to the surface at once. Recovery took much longer than I expected. And when your health collapses, you stop asking surface-level questions. You start asking the real ones. What does healing actually mean? How does the body heal? Why is it not responding the way I expect it to?

In 2021, I started to work with a personal trainer. It was hard, but I kept showing up. The progress was sloth speed...I am not even kidding. I am no stranger to cardio, but weight training was new to me. At the end of that year, I realized that I was stronger than I thought (I could leg press 300lbs)

This is the part of the story where you expect to hear...and I lost the weight and lived happily ever after.

Nope, I didn't lose a pound. I gained a little bit of muscle and a whole lot of confidence.

For me, it wasn't about those 30 lbs. I can rock it, I am all self-love.

For me, the weight was putting pressure on my joints that kept getting inflamed, which kept kicking my fibromyalgia into flare-ups. It was a vicious cycle coupled with all the perimenopause symptoms. It was the whole kitchen sink and then some.

I tried everything. Keto. Carnivore. Vegan. Juicing. Cleanses. If it existed, I probably tried it. None addressed what was actually happening inside my body.

AND nothing worked. The weight was not budging.

No amount of mindset work, spiritual practice, or energetic clearing was going to override a dysregulated metabolic system.

So I kept going back to the gym and lifting weights, I kept walking, I worked with a functional doctor, I got tests, I took supplements...I did a lot of healing work, energy work, and meditation. I worked with the future version of myself. Day in and day out...year in and year out...I kept showing up and doing the work.

We often don't talk about how long it takes...but healing is a practice. For me, it was a practice of patience and humility.

When I joined

@Vasi Smith

community, I was ready. I couldn't tell you how, but I knew this was gonna be the year I crack it, I solve the puzzle. I have been experimenting with intermittent fasting on my own, but jumping into my first 90hr water fast was wild...I would have never done this alone. I added hypnotherapy to my daily practice, and I started to see my body respond quickly.

The first thing that I actually noticed was that my inflammation was way down. My body was healing itself through these longer fasts (I have done two 45hr fasts in the last 10 days + daily 18hr fasts).

There were also two huge changes I made - I removed all sugar from my diet in November, and I stopped eating after dark (my last meal is between 4-5 pm)

AND...I believe that "healing in community" is the missing ingredient. Each community holds an energetic field, and within that field are stories of success that allow our bodies to feel what is possible for us.

This is not a story about quick fixes or before-and-after photos.

It's a story about learning to work with my body, not against it.

And about trusting the journey.

Some things take longer than we expect... we still have to love ourselves along the way!!!

I hope it provides inspiration if you are struggling and nothing seems to work.

What worked for me may not work for you, but if you keep showing up for yourself, you will heal.

I believe that wholeheartedly!

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