I feel like I am traversing two timelines, one being the old Ideology that has been manifested and created by myself due to indoctrination from man made mechanisms and beliefs systems that have been bestowed upon me by my elders, from their religious beliefs and teachings to archaic school systems and self seeking desires to be what the common people define is success, and that usually is perceived in monetary value, so basically anyone’s worth is placed around how much money they earn and in which way they did it? To me that seems so very false these days, like it’s far too superficial and for along Time had me trapped In believing that it’s the only way to live. Today it feels a bit like slavery must have felt, I’m a slave to the financial system and I feed capitalism and consumerism everyday, it’s a never ending hamster wheel that I keep on turning when I interact with it and believe it. I keep It going with that very belief. But then comes the fear with the awareness of it all and how false it actually is.This frequency that I have been operating in for so long is not the only frequency available. Mind blowing discovery that was for me!! But the fear has me in its grips as it’s all I’ve known for so long. It’s definitely getting better as I learn to surrender and let go and not try and dumb myself down to fit myself into that old timeline. Although some have given me that advice. They say I’m too intelligent and it will be my biggest downfall. Ok but I’m awake now so now what? no going back to sleep. fear grips again, but most of the people around me are still there, what am I to do, nobody wants to talk about the two different realities, people look at me like I’m crazy and I can’t help but think it is the that are crazy, but I then realise I too was like them, I was asleep and in total belief that, that way of life was the only reality. Oh how wrong I was. I’m on this journey now of not being able to find interest in things that used to capture me, mechanisms such as sport, my career in high end tech sales, so much of what the common folk do I was so consumed by, social media jargon and even movies and series which I totally loved all seem so time wasting to me, is this just life? Is this what happens when you hit 40? Do we have to just get on with it? That seems so silly. I’m a small cog in a big monstrous machine that eats up and spits out humans at a rapid and aggressive rate. Or here’s another mind blowing idea, is that narrative that is being sold on line there to actually create more division and separation, as the more we are all against one another the more chaos ensues and the more need for corporal order and punishment is required from false authoritarians such as police etc……