I don’t smoke or drink, been clean for a while. I’m starting to feel better it’s amazing, thought I’ll never change, it’s funny, My mental state is okay, it’s evolving, getting better slowly, no more dark abyss to control me. I still have memories but there’s room for new ones, to improve and become better than everyone else is. It does get better I promise, I speak from experience so it’s all true, everything am speaking. Days get brighter and brings more joy, but a split of sadness creeps away each day.