The community and courses take you a long way on your own. If you want personal help, I also teach private Dutch lessons, one-to-one, online. We work on exactly the part you find hardest, usually speaking, at your pace. A 30-minute trial is €28. No pressure, and you can just try one. See how it works and all the options here → https://learnwithlucas.com/en/private-dutch-lessons/