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A permanent solution
To a temporary problem. #sucide such a nasty word. I’ve tried 6 times myself not including all the medical procedures I’ve had.
The first time I was 13. I was horrifically bullied by my peers and my dad. I took a whole bottle of aspirin and was really sick for 3 days..
The second I took a razor blade when I was 16 and slashed the back of my head. I have a brain tumor and the pressure was so bad I couldn’t function.
The 4th time I ended up in a nut house after I’d taken all my pills for coping with y issues post brain surgery.
The 5th time a dr had me on an 8ball of fentanyl for 4 years. I had a psychiatrist tell me he was trying to kill me but I didn’t want to believe that. Then I woke up in the hospital barfing as they got it out of my system.
The 6th time I ended up in a nut house longerthan a 3 day hold and they started to do an illegal clinical trial on me.
But the last time….
I do stand up comedy and my joke is “I’m an absolute failure. If you’re going to fail at something might as well be suicide.”
I ended up in a nursing home because I got hypoxia. I couldn’t walk for 6 weeks. They had to restate me 3 x in the ambulance. I Remember waking up barely when I hit the table seeing “the light” I shit the bed. I didn’t get out of bed and had to be fed by a tube in my chest until I could eat solid food.
I had to learn how to walk again, get my strength up riding a bike and got up to an hour.
I was a mess. My dogs were ecstatic when I got home after 5 months.
You’ll end up somewhere you don’t want to be when they save you and everyone you know will judge you.
At least that’s been my experience.
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