I'm a great cook if I do say so myself. I'm not much of a recipe follower. I mostly cook by smell. Yesterday I decided to boil an egg. I put it in a pot of water & turned on the stove. The phone rang so I took the call. Then after a couple of minutes I got off the phone and started surfing skool. I decided to work on my summit stuff so I went upstairs. Then I smelled something burning. Damm! I forgot my egg. Figuring the pot boiled dry I rushed down the stairs. The house was full of smoke. Wtf? The egg wasn't on that long! I get into the kitchen and discovered the egg wasn't on at all. I turned on the wrong burner. Yup cooking with ADHD can be lots of fun. As long as the phone doesn't ring.

Happy Tuesday. Every triumph isn't a positive one. In fact I can remember many that felt downright empty. One of the reasons is the dopamine crash that comes after a big win. Maybe another is my neurospicy brain moves on too fast to pause and celebrate. Good thing every trouble isn't a loss. Into every life a little rain must fall. I would never have considered having groceries delivered on a PTSD day. Before the pandemic I'd actually run out of groceries quite regularly. Now I am so grateful I can have food dropped at my door that isn't takeout. It makes safe self-care feel more like taking a people break and less like self-isolating. My triumph this week is following through on some intentional price increases. In the past I would under value myself in more ways than money. Today I have a many clearer measurements to help me see when I'm sliding in that direction. My trouble this week is seeing a pattern of passive-aggressive manipulation being mirrored back to me. As I said all troubles aren't negative. I don’t feel guilty that I have expressed myself that way. I can see where that too came from a low self worth. Now I can see it and hopefully be aware of it more quickly. In doing so I will develop self-compassion and incredible my ability to hold compassion for others who are communicating from a place of pain and low self-esteem. It would appear both my triumph & my trouble are raising my self-esteem and self-compassion as they teach me to value myself. I am worthy of love and all good things. 1. What are your triumph & trouble today? 2. How are you responding to them? 3. What are they here to teach you?