Stillness before action
Now that's exactly what I need.
And that's exactly how I'd like my Dream day to start 😄
I did a little meditation this morning , yet, did not reach complete still ness
I noticed I easily got stressed with "all the things I need to do and have a hold on" something like that
Very worried about my relationship to my partner
I was very harsh and hard yesterday with him, to wards him. Very cold.
Wrote him I didn't want this anymore.
And the Truth is, it's not him I don't want anymore.
It's this destructive pattern we have been in at times.
I was not able to write him from a grounded way, so I was cold and then quite attacking and mean and rude.
I know where it comes from.
There is a place in my that is very hurt and scared.
Yet, I am indeed desiring and in need to practice Stillness before action.
So I did some of it earlier.
Actually even invited a girl friend to come do this Feminine Morning meditation practice together, it was helpful we did it.
I simply could feel and can still feel I need even more stillness before action.
Hard because I am also very hungry and have not eaten enough for quite a few days. :/
And been bleeding.
Periods.
They are finished now.
I need to eat.
Yet, I need stillness before that.
So back to stillness let's see if I manage few minutes more.