The road may be difficult, and it may not be the one that was meant for a patient like me, but it is the road I am walking, and I have no choice but to move forward. Life has given me challenges I never asked for, yet I choose to survive, to adapt, and to find strength even in my weakest moments. Every step I take is an act of courage, every breath a reminder that I am still here, still fighting. This journey is not about perfection or ease, but about resilience, hope, and the determination to live fully despite the struggles placed in my path.

Some people don’t know that I have MS because, on the outside, I look normal. I can walk, I can move, and I can do most things just like everyone else. There are no visible signs that show what my body is dealing with every day. But MS is not always something you can see. It’s an invisible illness, and just because I walk normally doesn’t mean I’m not struggling. When I get tired, it’s not just regular tired. It’s a deep, overwhelming exhaustion that feels like my body has completely shut down. My legs start to feel heavy, like they’re dragging behind me, as if every step takes twice the effort. Sometimes it feels like my body is working against me, and I have to push through just to keep going. My vision can become blurry, making it hard to focus or feel steady. My hands feel strange too—sometimes cold, sometimes tight, almost numb. Opening and closing them feels uncomfortable, like they don’t fully belong to me in that moment. These sensations are hard to explain, but they’re constant reminders of what MS does beneath the surface. Just because I look “fine” doesn’t mean I am always okay. MS teaches you to be strong in silence. It teaches patience, resilience, and understanding of your own limits. What people see is only a small part of the story. What they don’t see is the daily battle of managing pain, fatigue, and uncertainty while still trying to live a normal, meaningful life.

Wobbly walk in this weather ...I'm just being careful 😉

I feel like a robot when I walk. Stiff. Like a big person is hugging my whole body tightly. Being careful not to be out balanced, i walk slower than before.. I think im just gonna use this app as my online MS diary.