Just a quick report on my progress ... or lack thereof. 🙃 For a solid stretch there, I was doing quite well. Felt very solid in my trading. Passed those first 5 APEX, 50k evaluations and then, shortly after that, passed 5 more. Following those, I managed to raise my first 5 accounts above their payout line (all were over $52,600), but ... I was shooting for more cushion (over $54,600) before taking my first, max payout.
As soon as it started to feel "real" though ... I spiraled. My decision-making seemed to get worse and worse. On top of that, there were a couple of news events that caught me. So I went on this ... deep run of losses. Lost my confidence and ... whomp, whomp, whooooooomp ... lost the accounts. Now I'm starting over. With many less accounts, of course.
Overall, I still feel very good about my trading and the Superman process. All of my reviews of this stretch showed, had I simply been able to stay disciplined and followed my own docs ... I would have easily made my max payouts and kept the accounts. So ... back to square one, but ... with a MUCH better understanding of what I'll be facing ... emotionally ... when I get back to that payout zone.