When you die, you get buried in the ground, then all the bugs eat you and that's where it ends. That's how I felt before I turned 40 and then my life changed. I had everything I could have ever wanted, then lost it all because I had a spiritual awakening, and now I am building this community to help others on their journey. I traveled to 37 countries for leisure before I was 32 and literally been around the world, learning about different cultures, people, and exploring the Earth. I went from being a millionaire at aged 28, to selling a digital marketing business at 32, then getting completely fucked during the sale because of COVID-19. The final bulk payment for the sale of the business was due on March 30, 2020 and the dude who bought the business said that our contract was null and void according to the “Act of God” provision. He walked away from a $700K bill and basically said “Fuck You” while keeping the business, vendor relationships, and all of it’s assets. Then my wife and I got into a car accident on July 7, 2020. She was driving my Maserati truck down a country road here in Sarasota, slowed down to avoid hitting a deer, and someone smashed into the back of my truck. She hit her head on the steering wheel and suffered a traumatic brain injury, where she had damage to her prefrontal cortex (where decisions are made and emotions are managed). We thought it was a concussion, but she never really recovered from it. I didn’t realize it for almost a full year that she was never going to get better. She didn't think that anything changed, but can't remember who she was before the accident. The girl I spent my whole life looking for thought that I was an abuser, gaslighter, and that I was the reason that everything was getting fucked up in our lives. We had a smoke shop distribution business together and we started losing money hand over fist. $5-$10K a month down the drain because she was fucking up left and right and I could no longer count on her because she couldn’t make logical decisions.