For a long time, I thought quitting alcohol was enough. But It wasnβt. I stopped drinking, but I kept using cannabis for many years after. On top of that, I was addicted to fast food, coffee, nicotine, chocolate bars, chips, ice cream, candy, porn, all sorts of stuff. Anything that helped me distract myself or avoid feeling what I didnβt want to feel.
It was only a few years ago that I got really honest with myself and started to see why I was doing these things. It wasnβt about the thing itself, it was about the escape. The quick dopamine hit. The relief, even if it was short lived.
Luckily, Iβve got most of that under control now. I havenβt watched porn in over two years, which is honestly huge for me. I used to watch it every single day, sometimes multiple times a day.
The work doesnβt stop though. It doesnβt matter if youβve been sober for one year or twenty years, thereβs always something to look at. We usually just replace one addiction with another.
These days, my addiction looks different. Now itβs work. If Iβm not at my job, Iβm working on my business. If Iβm not doing that, Iβm on social media. Always doing something. Always moving. And I still have to remind myself to slow down, pause, and just be.
Whatβs one addiction youβve noticed you use to distract yourself or escape uncomfortable feelings? Share below if youβre open to it π