Turns out a lot of colleges in the US dont even require an SAT, like ofc its useful but if u dont have it they dont consider u any less than others, so after I got this realization I stopped killing myself studying. It wasnt going great at all so I just laid back and stopped worrying so much. Today I wanted to see where I was at so I took an adaptive 20 question general math test, and although my time was VERY slow (bc sometimes I do hand written when desmos was easier and I go back and do it) I bumped up my score a LOT and now have 80% accuracy. I can work on my timing, but I went up a lot, just from realizing that most colleges wont even look at this, so i stopped worrying and coincidentally my score got a lot better