I could have spiralled last night...
Last night was a real-time practice of steadiness.
I’d had a good day. Productive. Present. Even with the flu.
But around 9:30pm I felt that familiar spike.
Connor had been in the shower far longer than planned.
The house was still messy.
I hadn’t cooked a proper meal in days.
My body was exhausted.
And I could feel the old pattern trying to come online.
That tightness in my chest.
The urge to snap.
The “I should be coping better than this” voice.
The difference now?
I didn’t become the spike.
I noticed it.
I paused.
I lowered the bar.
I chose rest over proving something.
I didn’t clean the kitchen.
I didn’t prep tomorrow perfectly.
I got into bed and let the moment pass.
This is what capacity looks like for me now.
Not calm children.
Not a tidy house.
Not a perfectly regulated nervous system.
Just catching it earlier.
Softening faster.
Staying kinder to myself.
If you reflect on your own evening last night…
Where did you notice tension?
And did it spiral, or did it pass?
No judgement either way. Just awareness.
That’s the practice.
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I could have spiralled last night...
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