I've been pushing to the 200-mark for months, holding onto the hope that then my channel would be out algo-jail and I would start growing a lot faster than the grueling 12 months of me trying to pull 30 views and 1 new sub every week.
Along the way, I forgot about the number and focused on serving one person...and I fell in love with my process of creative expression on YouTube. So it feels like a win already--no matter how slow the climb continues to be from here.
Hint: I just keep envisioning the day when I'll blink and gain the another 200 subs. ;)