Hey, everyone. Hope all is well with you. I had a lot of bad few weeks. First the manger at my sober house relapsed and we had to kick him out. Then, we had two more guys leave, well being forced to leave because of transphobic behavior, then my PHP got shut down and all of us got kicked out, causing us to lose the house and for me to move back in with my parents. Then, I relapsed twice today and I tried being flirty with a girl, and I got rejected.(She was lying and I could tell). And to add on, I had a bad therapy session discussing my dating history. Iโm debating on getting coaching for my dating life as well as for my social life. But I donโt know if I should do it. Iโm really lost right now and I need support and guidance. Between this setback and all the money I own, I donโt know how I can move forward with this. I can feel the signs in my body to focus on me as well as my brain. Time is of the essence here. I canโt waste any of my youth being this broke and out of shape. My parents are continuing to be narcissistic and control every aspect of my life, after they claimed they wanted to help me and fix our relationship. Iโm at the point where I wanna scream and just numb myself again, but I know thatโs the last thing I need to do. Idk if Iโm being a coward or not, but idk why the issues arenโt being fixed. I see the other side, but the bridge looks unstable and there is fire engulfing it. I feel bad for myself. Everything is hitting me all at once. I know what I have to do but I canโt make that first step. I just wanna cry rn and seek some level of psychical relief. This sucks