"To know him is Eternal Life; to serve him is perfect freedom." - Collect for Peace, BCP, Anglican rite. Dissociation persists when I know him in word, only. True knowledge of anyone is meant to be integrative. Sincerity in friendship is discerned more: when we eat & drink with them rather than merely chat. "Truly... except ye eat my flesh and drink my blood, ye have no life in you." John 6:53 I used to feel exactly that - lifeless; a vagabond. We become more like those we Commune with 🥪🍷🏡 .