I took down my last post. I cannot express how much spiritual warfare is going on. I think I need to step away for a while so as not to be a burden here. I have some things that need rooted out. I am not usually this type of person who cries out for prayer. I’m usually stronger than this. God help me.

The weight of the responsibility of the Call to Excellence was very much felt today. Whatever the Lord is calling you all towards, wear it with honor. This is the KING of Kings that we GET to serve, and He loves His beloved children. We are the apple of His eye. He died for me when I didn't deserve it🥺. He comforts me🥰. He feeds me 🥗. He healed me. He restored me. He covers me and protects me. On and on we could go. I used to think that when I missed the mark God was dissapointed but I was reminded, (as I was typing) that, to Him, a 1000 years is but a day. The many many many years that it took me to learn a lesson, hear Him clearly, or obey, to Him, it's only seconds.[if that]🥹 Plus we have been made righteous through Christ Jesus. "What is man that You are mindful of him, And the son of man that You visit[a] him? 5 For You have made him a little lower than [b]the angels, And You have crowned him with glory and honor. Psalm 8: 4 & 5. I pray blessings over you all! I love you with the love of Christ, Shaamya

I was not approved for the business loan through my booking site, and I said, “That’s fine. God will make a way.” I served three clients this week and received two future bookings that generated deposits. I still had a credit card payment that needed to be made because I didn’t want the account to close. I paid that, bought a few groceries, and put gas in my car. But after all of that, I still didn’t have the $250 to pay my weekly salon suite rent. And all day I kept saying, “God will make a way. He already knows what I need before I ask.” Matthew 6:8 (KJV) says: “Be not ye therefore like unto them: for your Father knoweth what things ye have need of, before ye ask him.” That Scripture stayed with me because I truly believed God already knew what I needed, even though I had no idea how He was going to provide it. I was tired. Tired of asking my brother for help. I started putting in job applications because I trust God, but I also know what James 2:17 (KJV) says: “Even so faith, if it hath not works, is dead, being alone.” So I kept doing my part while trusting God with what I could not control. Then the tears finally broke. I simply said, “God, I don’t know. I leave it in Your hands. You always make a way.” And I kept coming back to Proverbs 3:5–6 (KJV): “Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.” Back in December of last year, I had put myself on a list for Square business credit. I thought no more about it. Then tonight, around 7:45, I checked my business email and saw that I had already been preapproved for a Square Business American Express card. All I needed to do was complete my information. Praise God. That came through tonight, and I was able to pay my salon suite rent. What touched me most was that I had been saying all day, “He will make a way. He already knows what I need before I ask.” And He did. I didn’t know how the answer was going to come. I didn’t know where the provision was going to come from.