Who are you really? What defines you? (It's nothing like you currently believe)
This post is going to be perhaps a weird one, one that might not be grasped immediately. I will be sharing with you an insight I learned about from a book called "Awake: It's your turn". It's a book about awakening in simple and practical terms. I myself haven't experienced awakening yet, so I am just copying this "awakened insight" from this book โ I haven't experienced this reality yet, meaning that a lot of this will be paraphrasing and/or directly copied from the book. Warning: this might seem like just some mental gymnastics or perception jargon, but it is not. This is something that comes from "waking up" from reality. Awakening is something so profound that it is indescribable and unexplainable through language and concepts. ---------------------- A Shift in Identity A practical way to describe what occurs during an awakening is to say that itโs a shift in identity. It is a shift in what you take yourself to be. Specifically, it is a shift from continuously referencing concepts and beliefs about who you are for a sense of identity, consistency, meaning, and fulfillment to resting in and as consciousness. Until awakening occurs, we continuously and without noticing it, take ourselves and our experience to be defined by thoughts and concepts. This means that our identity is intimately tied into thoughts and beliefs, whether we know it or not. Once identity shifts from thoughts to the source of thoughts, a dramatic transformation in the way you relate to reality has taken place. This doesnโt mean there will be no thoughts. What it means is that your identity isnโt threatened and fractured by fluctuating and inconsistent beliefs about yourself and the world on an ongoing basis. Imagine you are standing in a meadow at night. Youโre looking out onto a clearing. In that clearing is a large pond. The sky is cloudless and there is a full moon shining brightly on the pond from directly overhead. There is a brisk breeze sweeping across the meadow. Because of the wind, the surface of the pond is turbulent. Due to this turbulence, there is no complete reflection of the moon appearing on the surface. There are only tiny dancing shards of light shimmering here and there. You could say the moon appears โfracturedโ into many pieces on the surface of the water. As you stare at the surface of the pond, you are mesmerized by the dazzling display. Letโs further assume that since youโve been standing in the meadow, you havenโt averted your gaze away from the surface. You have no knowledge of anything but the surface of the pond. For all you know, there is no meadow, no wind, no sky, and no moon. Furthermore, the water hasnโt calmed enough to see the full lunar reflection as a single whole. You fail to recognize the moon in the sky as the source of the reflection on the pond surface.