Hi

• How to compassionately “rest” (just to be oppositional haha)

• “Procrastination” v procrastination because of undiagnosed conditions, SpLD’s… there will be a reason. This is why ripping off the Bandaid hurts, but can be so, so life changing

• Saying yes, over no. How so much work needs to be done to get to this point where I’m saying yes to this course.

• “Can make decisions only from love (intuition) and fear (procrastination)”

• I am not the only one with ADHD writing issues, massive resistance, all wrapped in anxiety :)

• “The feeling proceeds the actions/manifestation of what we’re trying to bring into the world”. Beauty of the day… family.. food..= so important to writing

• Importance of feeling ready, peeling back the layers

• Importance of flow of consciousness, and it releasing judgement/criticism/flack out of the body and mind.

2.

• PhD…. I’d like 30k of words by end of year. I have had significant (over a decade+) of difficulty due to undiagnosed ADHD and SpLD’s. I have started writing this year, and I’m currently near 16k. The total word count is 80-100k.

3.

• Paralysing anxiety/avoidance

• I can feel physically drained from just thinking about it, so I will think I need to “rest”, and rest and rest… before to do it

• I will not read feedback from my supervisor. My mental health worker has been trying for weeks to get me to a point where she can read them to me. Tomorrow we will meet in a cafe to do if. I think I have rejection sensitivity dysphoria. It is quite debilitating to be so fearful of what might not even be negative feedback.

4.

• Keep to the aim of 150 words a day and taking all the extra words coming, even if they are just draft form. Get past the perfectionism blocking action and productivity.

• Acknowledge nervous system dysregulation

• Be more compassionate toward how I’m feeling, and not beat myself up for feeling fearful

• Start to try feel my own intuition, what is this to me?

5.

• I don’t think I’m ready yet. I do use Tiimo that helps with accountability from a non-human. I do a study tutor who is checking in.

Steph and Clarendon the hamster 🐹❤️