I thought I’d share this prayer I found relevant for myself if it helps anybody else:
“God, I’m terrified of becoming the man I used to be.
I’m scared that this change is fragile and I’ll screw it all up.
I know how easily I can fall into pride or lust or apathy.
But I want You more than I want comfort. I want truth, not just pleasure.
So kill the parts of me that would drag me to hell with a smile.
Put people in my life who’ll speak life, not lies.
And don’t let me go, even when I try to run”