What You Seek ~ Seeks You
I can't… I just can't 😭 😭. . I need a box of tissues. I hadn’t even finished writing my assignment on "What I Seek, Seeks Me" (see below), when Diane sent me this amazing new song by Jelly Roll: “Lord, You Are My Strength”. The timing was uncanny — he’s summing up the words I just wrote, especially #1 seeking Peace. It reminded me that if it hadn’t been for the Lord being my strength, I wouldn’t have made it through the times that taught me what I would no longer tolerate -- the silence without eye contact, the competition, the power struggles, the endless trials, the drama, the toxicity. God has truly been my refuge, my song, my anchor, and my everlasting strength in every battle.🙏 I’ve spent my whole life chasing PEACE ~until I realized I could create it myself. Now, I protect it fiercely. WHAT YOU SEEK — SEEKS YOU What I’m Seeking, Seeks Me #1 Peace I want to be accepted without having to perform. To have the freedom to sit in silence — beside someone who’s comfortable there too. I’m not looking for another challenge or project. I seek someone who makes me feel safe to grow older, to feel safe to simply be myself — no pressure to keep up the looks of my youth or hide every flaw. I’m finally comfortable in my own skin, and I want to stay that way. Through it all, I’ve learned: "Lord, you are my strength, the calm when I’m afraid, the hope in me, every step of the journey — you carry me with grace." Without Him, I wouldn’t have understood what peace really looks like, or how to demand it in my life. #2 Respect for My Scars My scars tell stories — of failure, divorce, and the mistakes that cost me dearly. I don’t want them erased, only respected. I don’t need to be fixed or analyzed.