I struggled last night. I’m struggling this morning, but I know I can do it at home. I’m gonna wake up tomorrow, so I just need to keep that vision of me in my head and focus on other things, because it’s not gonna end well.

Getting easier. Can wait to feel like myself again. The energy

struggle a little bit last night, but I think I’m getting to the point where I can say no. I just want to feel like myself again.

last night was a little rough, but I just keep moving forward. I know I’m not doing this alone.

I started letting things slide . Because I thought oh it’s fine I can just carry on the way I am and I’ll manage to stay clean. Big mistake , I realise now recovery takes continuous work , and just because I got a mere 3 and a half weeks in , doesn’t mean I’ve cracked it: I new my thinking was getting bad because I started to negotiate . But temptation and romanticising the high got the better of me when actually there was more I could do to prevent a relapse , I just got complacent .