Hehe, already forgot the questions, but… I'm still thinking about yesterday's call... May I share what I'm feeling? I'm feeling shame when realizing how little intentionally I created the life and circumstances I find myself in today. Time ran and suddenly I'm 46, premenopause is kicking in, my son is almost 18, my daughter 14, my partnership is on the edge and with the plandemic we moved to the most isolated countryside we could find in Germany. It's beautiful here, but also... isolated. 😅 If I could do it all over again, I would be a lot more conscious about what type of partnership I wish and need, and only get pregnant when the partnership is a really stable foundation for a family to be built. Everything else gets everyone involved into a whole whirlwind of inner and outer trouble. I've always felt a lot of potential in my being, and always postponed living it fully to a future that seems to have passed by already. I currently work as a web- and branddesigner and I love it. It's always been my thing to see and feel people's essence and I love to express and mirror that visually. And still, I feel that I could be a lot more of service for others... In the past years I've gone down all the rabbit holes and future doom scenarios. Now our many stocked supplies have passed their expiration date and I kind of put my head in the sand, not to be overwhelmed by fear for my kids. Germany is reintroducing military service and I'm already noticing my heart-rate go up... Moving to another country is still on my radar, but I don't want to move out of fear again. It impressed me yesterday to see the energy Samantha still has to figure out the best path through it all, and it made me notice the part in me that has almost given up. I lost quite some feathers by fighting mandatory school during covid and I feel I'm still in recovery mode. 😌 So, I need some inspiration for these topics again and I hope that it is ok if I'm not super on fire yet. Plus, I'm in a super expensive polarity coaching at the moment and it's very confusing to see so many happy sovereign women when all my coach wants to convey is that I need to relax into submission and following a man's leadership. 😂🤪😆

I found about this community trough the VISIO course. and the first intro video really resonated with similar thoughts I have been reflecting on. I am taking steps everyday to keep grounded and centered in order to keep tunning in to my inner calling. Currently leaning in more to develop and share my knowledge as an engineer, healing the body trough movement, Life coach (Listening and listening deeply) and as an NVC practitioner and future facilitator (NVC: (Non Violent Communication by Marshal Rosenberg) 🌎

Hi everyone! My name is Yoana and I've been on the "healing journey" or more like "removing whatever society placed on me" journey. The current world felt like it was built on a fully masculine routine.. no natural feminine flow and or rhythm. I also work on quantum psychosemantics - basically body connection, pattern work, and full embodiment. I accidentally stumbled upon a video of Samantha Lotus and felt like she was quite genuine and loved what she's done with her eye sight, etc. This just felt right. I recently quit my job and I am in the midst of creating and building my own system and business from a feminine perspective. Currently in the middle of what feels like a void or recalibration and working oon clarity with how to create a feminine led business. (While I figure that out, I started a substack newsletter of my journey.) Nice to meet you all 🦢