THE PAST life is perfect from a bits and pieces. I can remember beyond seven years old. My father died and then that’s where the journey starts as a widowed son. My mother took it hard. I had two sisters, one older, one younger, and I started rebellion and she could not discipline me or handle me so my granddaddy retired and moved back to town to raise me seven years old I shot a window out of a car driving down the road with a BB gun for fun and later that day or whatever when I was packing my clothes what not me and my granddad that I’ve only seen twice in my whole life. I didn’t know this man was in his original house he grew up in. House hadn’t been lived in in years and from seven until I got a job and started selling drugs at 15. I slept on a mattress in the living room floor. And let me tell you this house. It didn’t get actual flooring in it until I was already 17 and those are you know there’s so many privilege and spoiled people nowadays they don’t even know we walked and lived on and I slept on bear OSB floors tell me the hours I spent picking splinters. Never had a bedroom to myself until I was able to rent my own place.We sat at that kitchen bar. He looked at me and says it’s been over 40 years since I raised a kid I don’t know how to do that in this generation and me as a kid sitting in the barstool tears filled my eyes, cause I realized well if you don’t know what to do with me how the hell am I supposed to know I come from a little tight net community called the neck and the people were called neck gators very rough neck swing first ask questions later community they took me in and the community they all pitched in to help raise me and teach me and still this day. I’m so appreciative and thankful. But let me tell you every man taught me something that I look up to his mentors date where alcoholics or drug addicts and I promise you they were the nicest giving us down to earth people that I’ve yet to meet anyone like them again since they’ve all passed now looking back because I wouldn’t be the man. I am today with these unshakable morals and beliefs, and as a kid, I original my mom keeping my sisters and giving me up why me and She kept them I was always a broken, lost soul, just seeking human companionship or parently figures that would just give me attention, but I can say you’re not pass it. I was there about a week old man I miss him to death. You’ve been gone a lot of years he looked at me and said son, you ain’t no kid you a young man you may be young in years, but you’ve already been through things grown adults never have to face but let me tell you something you’ll learn more. That’ll make you the most valuable person that possible walked this earth in this timeframe if you just watch these people in his neighborhood and I did and I’m telling you this neighborhood and still this day I’ve seen millionaire business owners married happy drive that one little Honky Tonk bar in the middle and within months to a year time they get consumed and taken away and end up, walking out with nothing but shirt on their back or if they ever made it out . and just goes deeper there’s so much I’m leaving out that I keep remembering when I was 21. I got my first love first woman I’ve been with pregnant with my little girl and I made that promise right before she was born when I said this bit I’m getting rid of the scale. I never get in a dope game again have my own house happy little family. No mother got diagnosed with liver cancer no matter to past and how I felt no questions asked I moved her in and took care of her during the three month battle with chemo cancer too she passed that’s a deep touchy subject, cause she died a month later caught my baby mama cheating and then she leaves me takes the kid and then we’re here eight years later seven years it is a blur because I stayed intoxicated for many of you would know I learned how to professionally walk a straight line narrow

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