Even though I feel there is alot of unanswered questions and sometimes it feels like I am walking through quicksand trying to pull me down. In the last 6 months I have seen and had more moments of joy and hope. Alot of times when I am feeling discouraged and lonely I am now leaning more on God than trying to run from the feelings and listening to Christian music, devotions and working out all help me process those feelings in a healthier way.
if you have gone through this and experienced God's goodness, I encourage you to share for those whose faith has been shaken and are struggling to see God in any of it.