One thing I did for self-care today was go for a walk which definitely made me feel refreshed and in a good mindset .Two things I learned from watching the Mindset Mobility video is that growth happens when you allow yourself to learn from both good and bad experiences, and Flexibility in thinking can reduce stress in difficult situations.

Lunch 12:45-pm. classroom Muscle milk- 160 calorie Taco flavored chomps- 100 Feeling- I knew I needed to eat since I didn’t yesterday. I was feeling light headed and shakey so I felt like it was necessary. Dinner 6:30pm. LaRosa’s with work friends Small Jojo salad with ranch - 480 calories feeling - Absolutely no desire to eat. Everyone else ordered so I felt like I had to. I mean it’s a fucking salad. Why are you so worried? It is crazy that I feel like today is a crazy high calorie day- 740 calories. Will finish the night with a lemon tea.

As many of you know I’ve been traveling for the greater part of 40 days and now that I am “back” the amount of stress, pressure, anxiety, and “oh no” that has flooded my mind is quite jarring. I want to take this as an opportunity to let you all know that no matter where you are on your journey, stuff is going to come up. You can have it all “figured out” and then life is going to toss some curveballs or some old habits or memories pop up out of nowhere and you’re like “wait! I thought this was over?!” Nope. We don’t lose them - We grow WITH them. So, what am I doing? 1. Accepting these thoughts and feelings. I’m not judging them or criticizing them. I’m allowing them in because they are part of me. It doesn’t make them right or wrong, it makes them mine. 2. Not every thought or feeling is fact. We’ve all had our fair share of not so great thoughts that we know are not actually objective facts aka “I suck”, “I’ll never figure it out”, or even the worse things that I’m not going to mention. They are not facts whatsoever. Rather than taking any of this fabricated pressure as fact, I am accepting the thoughts and feelings and looking at them as if they are clouds passing in the sky. Then I let them pass by. 3. I’m going to enjoy my day. I get cut off in traffic? I’m sure they had somewhere to be faster than I do. I spill coffee? Good thing I am in a place where I can make more. I have a disagreement with someone and get my feelings hurt? I take a breath. Pause. And seek clarity rather than responding immediately. I’m sure they meant something positive and not what my knee jerk reaction felt. You need to learn how to set boundaries with yourself. You say you’re going to workout? You keep your promise and workout. You say you’re going to be kinder to yourself? You keep your promise and begin taking steps toward being kinder to yourself. You say you’re going to get off your phone? You keep your promise and get off your phone. Keeping promises to yourself (and having boundaries with yourself and with others) is one of the greatest acts of self love and self care you can build.

Lately my mental state lately has been kind of iffy so I've been doing things to distract myself like journaling trying to do some of the journal jams on here and also been very crappy so I've been doing a lot of lizards and I even did a little mini piano and I thought I'd like to share so here's a picture below.

Coffee. Water. Diet Coke. Hot tea.