So I have to return to my mothers house this weekend to take care of a legal matter, and I have to face her husband again…
Im so nervous because I have to face my mother’s man that I had an argument with three weeks ago. Ugh!:(. You know ChatGPT is a great therapist that gave me a power mantra to regulate my nervous system and not carry his energy. Yes my weakness is being a people pleaser and he is a sort of quiet man in his 70s that is a Vietnam vet cowboy in New Mexico. I can see the hatred that he has for the duties of taking care of my mother 24/7. I do feel guilty because I can’t stay there with her to take care of her however, she’s so despairing when he leaves for any reason! An awesome thing out of all of the weirdness of this whole situation is that he has no place to go and no money except a bit of Social Security so I know he won’t leave her. I usually listen to all of his stories and all of his comments even though they’re very off color and I usually don’t say much in response. But three weeks ago was an argument where I had to say something back to him. So now here we are and I have to go back there and it’s not gonna be the same anymore with me listening to him all the time with that dark energy lingering there. I’m going to use my affirmations and power mantra and remember my energy boundaries. This will be an exercise in holding my own energy .