I was stuck in the cycle again. Sprinting for my LIFE on the hamster wheel. I’d had a great streak of “feeling good” emotionally. And for whatever reason, I found myself overwhelmed on a regular ol day of homemaking. I started white knuckling my self control. “I don’t WANT to feel this. I rebuke this” But by that time, I was already sliding down the slippery slope. I found myself combing YouTube again, looking for something, ANYTHING I could grab onto to stop the waves of anxiety that were racking my body and clouding my mind. “Not todaaaaaay” I thought as anxiety roiled over into anger and aggravation at myself. “What is WRONG with you?” “There is literally nothing going on right now you shouldn’t be able to handle” And the thoughts kept biting, like a swarm of bloodthirsty mosquitoes. I’d smack one, and more would take its place. At this point, I’m completely and utterly out of sorts. I’m literally drowning in fear, anxiety and anger. And on top of that, it’s glaring in my face how far I am outside out of my usual daily rhythm of caring for my home, my babies, my charges given to me by God.❤️ “Once I get something tangible to hold onto, just a little reassurance, I can move on with my day” I thought to myself *check mate* for the enemy of my soul 🙁 I finally found what I was looking for, one of my favorite YouTube therapy creators. Her voice is so soothing, and her tips are usually so actionable. She said something in the video that stopped me in my tracks. Like my Father put a mega phone up to her mouth that was pointed right at my soul. “Uncomfortable emotions can’t harm you, but the need to ESCAPE them, to DEAL WITH THEM can.” And THAT is where my true healing story began. ❤️ Does this resonate with anyone? Have you found yourself in a similar cycle? I’ll share more stories like this, I just wanted to see if any of you have found yourselves here too -Christina

Got a “win” that you accomplished today? Focusing on the COOL STUFF you did/experienced in a day is actually good for your brain…So share the cool thing and let’s celebrate eachotha! I’ll GO FIRST! ⬇️⬇️ I got that laundry mountain folded and put away! YOU KNOW THE ONE IM TALKING ABOUT! I know you’ve got one too! 🫣😂 AND! I taught one of my smaller kiddos how to hang her shirts on a hanger. Hooray for “training up a child”!

God brought you here and I’m so freaking stoked about that. Let’s kick this thing off with some fun! Tell me: ☀️Your name 🌈 Your fave color! 🧝‍♀️ Your fave LOTR character! My answers in the comments 🤭 Ready? GO!

Hey friends! Wow I’m excited about this!! I created this space for Christian homemakers who are ready to escape overwhelm and isolation. Nervous system regulation, powerful mindset shifts, and actionable wisdom/systems will be the focus ☀️ Based on my own struggle with mental/physical health battles, I want to share the gifts God has given me to OVERCOME so my sisters can walk in freedom too! If you found yourself here, please answer my poll below so I can serve you better! -Christina In terms of emotional wellbeing/mindset as a Christian homemaker, what mental hurdle do you encounter the most?

It would happen before I could even catch myself. Messes from the day closing in around me. And from a GOOD day too. A day of fun, and creation and play with my 4 sweet kiddos, homeschooling and taking care of things here on our little farm.🥹 “Why am I getting overwhelmed by this?” What’s wrong with me? I should be more grateful, but I’m just p*ssed of… why am I like this?” The pressure in the keg already building. I look at the clock, noting my husband will be home soon. Better get my attitude in check and striiiiiiiiiiiive my way out of this crappy feeling. “I don’t like feeling this way, what’s wrong with me? I’m lucky I even have a husband that’s coming home. I need to get my attitude right” And more pressure building even still 🙃 At this point, fight or flight is kicking in and your girl has allllllllwaaaaaaaaays tended toward FIGHT so now, the heat is up and I’m reaching my boiling point. I start seeing the “disorder” and “chaos” and “lack of stewardship” all around me as my mind keys in on “threats to be aware of”…. 👀 The laundry pile. The dust. The freaking SMELL of the garbage can. And holy crap, I look like a wreck! I need to sharpen up before he gets home, why can’t I just do a better job? I start barking orders out of desperation for control, realizing just how much work I still have to do to reach that feeling of “ahhh, I did it! My work is done” and then I catch the expressions on my babies faces… My little loves have that “unsure of what moms gonna do next” look in their eyes and then… BOOM.🌋💥 That’s the final straw. I lose it, I scream at them to clean up or else, I hustle like a frantic insane person and somehow, in chaos and madness get everything just the way I want it before he comes in. But WHY am I doing this???? I’m not actually mad at them. Their expression broke my heart. So i anxiously sort the clutter in my mind like this: The mess is handled. The kids are in order. The overwhelm? I beat it back to the dark where it belongs. I got it done.