Hi everyone!! I’m Vanessa from NYC - my gifts aren’t online again yet, but I know I had them at least! lol Similar to many others, I actively shut my gifts down as a kid when I was made to fear them. I don’t know exactly what I was seeing/experiencing, I just referred to them as ghosts when I was little / it was never a frightening thing, I saw these beings regularly & I interacted with them; looking back, I’m inclined to think they were my spirit guides. But it’s been 40 years & I remember the day very clearly - it was my grandmother’s funeral & the fear of seeing her (as a “ghost”) frightened me so much that I just set the intention to shut it all down. Praying at the casket, I begged her not to visit me & to stop them all from coming too. Fast forward to 2025 when I really began this journey that I decided I wanted my gifts back. Like many, I had a (very) traumatic childhood, and I lived in survival mode my whole life. I became a highly functional anxiety-ridden SuperMom - I juggled a toxic corporate career & motherhood (my husband left when my daughter was a baby & then died in 2019) & tried to survive enough so that I could keep it all rolling along - I would patch myself up with whatever methods I used back then when I didn’t have an understanding of what was even going on truly. For a while, I was “successful” - I did well in school & had a good job that I maintained for over 20 years before it fell apart. Everything came crashing down when I finally acknowledged my SOUL/SPIRIT was crying out for help. I did what may try to do: Eat well. Workout. Therapy. Take the meds they tell us we need to get our brains to cooperate so we muddle through another day of life, never actually living. I was merely surviving so I could pay the bills & keep the whole facade going. Initially, my logical brain thought, okay, let’s make a change. So I spent almost $10K on a career coaching program to find my next career - and all that program did was tear me open & the “breakdown” quickly ensued. But that breakdown is what made me better - finally. It did not happen overnight but eventually my nervous system started to regulate - though I couldn’t tell you when it had ever even worked properly to begin with - maybe as a child before all the PTSD….

Hey everyone, super excited to share this! So I did a reading with Christine (if you haven’t yet you definitely should, she’s crazy accurate and even picked up on my grandpa and cat who have crossed over🥹) and she picked up on an ET guardian that I have. I have her forehead and big eyes 😍😂 okay but for real, how cool? She’s a Tall White, which I’m now learning is technically different from Nordic ETs despite them sharing similar features. Energetically different as well. I don’t know much about them but I’m really excited to develop a connection to them and learn more about her and myself. She’s really good at concealing her energy as I’ve never picked up on any Tall White energy before, I tend to gravitate toward Lyran/ Pleiadian / Blue Avian energy. Ohh I wonder what experiences we’ve had together 😍 Anybody else work with or have a Tall White as a guardian/ alien bestie?

it's been a minute since I've uploaded a podcast episode but now it is here for you to enjoy! here's a RAW & passionate take on how my life has changed now that I'm channeling. Warning - I swear a bit in this episode because HOLY FUCK WHAT IS HAPPENING IN MY LIFE

just sharing with you guys here!

Hello, my name is Deby. I'm someone looking for their tribe and felt drawn to this group.