I’m finding this really hard to carry right now. Sleep and appetite - non existent. My beautiful man is on my mind constantly. Our connection hasn’t gone away - it’s strong, and at times I can sense his energy, the connection between us is still very much alive - he feels for me and misses me deeply - that is certain!. I know that might be hard to explain, but to me it is real. The love is still there, and that makes it even harder to sit in this distance, both physical and emotional, and not know what’s truly going on for him. What I do know for certain is how I feel. I love him deeply, and I’m not ready to give up on that. This isn’t something I can just switch off or walk away from. 🤍 At the same time, I’m trying to stay aware that I can’t control his choices or his situation, but I’m sitting in this space between holding on to love and trying not to lose myself in it -and I don’t quite know how to balance that yet. I just needed to share this honestly, because I’m struggling and have no one to talk to😥. GOD! I wish I had friends or family I could talk to