I am thinking of and praying for you and your family. If there is absolutely anything we can do to help in some way, please let me know. Hugs and love to you, my beautiful friend.

I hope you are feeling a little better today. At the very least, the sun is smiling down on us today!

Hi Kathy. I like posts like this one because when you do the reminders, I take my colored pencils and write these "go to" items so they stand out and I can refer back to the reminders when I'm feeling blah or down and out or whatever mood strikes me :) I can't thank you enough for bringing to life "A Gentle Place to Land" ... I'm learning, slowly but surely...I'm learning!

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This is absolutely positively something I need to do for myself

#1 is what I really need to focus on. It seems when I am upset about something or I'm sad, etc., I want to immediately react. In the past, I would say some things to Randy because I'm mad and most of the time they were not nice things that I wish I could take back but can't. Of course, I immediately apologize, but words hurt, you can't take them back and, at least for me, I dwell on what I said and didn't mean to. If I would just settle myself down, no matter who has said or done something that angers me, take those slow breaths and just focus on something else, I'd be in a much better place. I'm learning from you and I feel like I'm starting to turn a corner where I'm not crying every single day. 9 times out of 10, my crying is because of grief and depression and most especially over the loss of my mom. One thing I have figured out is I need to put myself first instead of taking a back seat to things or let others say and do whatever they will and not think twice if it hurts my feelings or not. I'm slowing stepping up and saying "that's not right." Self-care needs to be loving yourself and not forgetting you matter too.

@Kathy Marlink Where have you been the last 30 years or so when I've needed you lol. This is how sensitive I am...I always allowed people to say and do things to me that would hurt my feelings and would never speak up because I didn't want someone to hurt by whatever I might say in return. I have worried too much about other people and their feelings and allowed myself to take the hurt. I would much rather avoid drama, but I am learning that I don't have to take the bs anymore. I still don't want to hurt others, yet I'm tired of being the one hurting all of the fricking time (I really wanted to say "fucking" lol) (and I can hear you laughing as you read that last part lol). Right now, I keep thinking back about the issue with Terri and Patti. While Terri said we need to have this conversation with Jim and Patti, my mind goes back and forth about this. Patti absolutely knows what she has said and done to me as she has done it to others. Why do I have to re-hash the drama that was inflicted upon me by her? Yet, I want her to know exactly what she has said and done that has caused such hurt. I know what I say will not change things and I really don't care either way. As I stated before, I really don't want any sort of relationship with her. Nothing she can say or do will change my feelings about what she has done, my trust in her as a friend is gone simply because of the many lies she has told straight to my face and how she is lying to Terri. The very close friendship I had with Terri is really damaged because of Patti and that hurts me terribly. One of these weekends I'll be at the campground, where we can sit with our coffee and journals and just go to town :)