🔥 SATURDAY — Sacred Shadow: The Day I Realized Staying Broke Was My Way of Staying Loved 🔥
Let me take you behind the curtain again, love. There was a day — and I remember it in my bones —when something cracked open. Not softly. Not politely. Not intellectually. It hit like a tidal wave: I wasn’t struggling because I lacked strategy. I wasn’t stuck because I needed better mindset work. I was broke because I was obedient. This was the day I realized staying broke was a form of obedience Obedient to the emotional codes I was raised inside of. Obedient to the ceilings that kept everyone connected. Obedient to the unspoken rule: “Don’t outgrow the people who taught you how to survive.” Staying broke was familiar. Predictable. Culturally acceptable. Emotionally safe. It was my unconscious way of saying: “See? I’m still one of you.I won’t rise past you.I won’t leave you behind.” And that realization gutted me. Because it meant my struggle wasn’t accidental. It was loyal. The day I raised my standards, a part of me trembled. A part of me feared exile. A part of me feared being misunderstood. A part of me feared becoming “different.” But here’s the Sacred Shadow truth: Staying small to preserve belonging is still self-abandonment. And it wasn’t helping anyone. Not them. Not me. Not the world I came here to touch. That day, something died. The obedient daughter. The loyal struggler. The woman who thought love required limitation. And something else was born. A woman who could love her roots without shrinking to match them. A woman who understood that expansion is not betrayal —it’s evolution. That’s the woman I live from now. She doesn’t ask permission to rise. She doesn’t apologize for overflow. She doesn’t brace for success. She chooses it. And she stays.