I need brothers who know how to go to war in prayer to join me in praying for a miracle. The needs are many, from some sudden medical issues and continuing financial needs, and I’m at the end of the road. I need a heavenly breakthrough. God is always faithful. If you know how to pray and believe, will you cover me?

The answer to that is, of course, no. @Adam Davis has spoken before about how the training we receive as a first responder can be detrimental when applied to our lives and especially our marriage. The 12 year struggle of dealing with my wife's progressively worsening alcohol addiction was definitively made worse by my history as a firefighter. We are trained to save lives through our strength, training, and procedures. 1st responders have a bad habit of not letting go of those we could not save. For decades "my dead" as I came to call them, visited my nightmares asking why I failed to save them. I was so determined that Karen would not join them, so focused on saving her that I failed to realize that only God could do that. Since 2018 she has been in treatment 9 times and has returned to drinking every time. Watching her slowly killing herself was like rolling up on a working house fire, seeing my beloved standing in the window making no effort to escape, and not having any water to extinguish the flames. After I finally received the help I needed in 2020 I came to realize that it was only God's saving grace, and not my own strength that could save her. I gave her over to Him and admitted my own powerlessness. I wish I could tell you this story had a happy ending, but it does not. In April I came to realize that Karen was out of my reach and in order to preserve my own mental wellbeing I must separate from my wife of 17 years. Now I struggle with the 'what ifs'. What if I had the clarity of mind to center our marriage in Christ from the beginning? I was so sure that my own suffering was God's punishment, my own guilt and shame kept me from taking my wife's hand and seeking the Kingdom of God together. What if I had stopped relying on my own strength, and laid Karen at the foot of the cross? I own my failures as a husband, but now I do know that they are forgiven. If you are struggling with addiction in your marriage, be it yours or your beloved, remember that only our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ can heal your afflictions. His grace is sufficient and His power is made perfect in our weakness.

What would life look like if you were able to discover your authentic identity? In this episode, Adam shares a piece of his past and how complex trauma shaped a false identity and how he has worked to overcome it. Tune in, like, subscribe, and share! #liveunconquered (est 15 min)

Reviewing Chapter 4 of Philippians and the secret to Phil 4:13.

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