Hey SS community! Just uploaded my 9th YT video, love to hear your feedback! Additionally, I would appreciate it if you could comment, like and subscribe if you found value

Hey Synthesizer family! Just uploaded my new video, love to hear your feedback! Additionally, I would appreciate it if you could like and subscribe if you found value!

Hey SS family! I launched my new video, love to hear your feedback! Additionally, I would appreciate it if you could like and subscribe you enjoy my video if you found value.

This is a long post so thanks to anyone who reads it and replies. I appreciate you. This post took me > 3 hours 30 minutes to write and organise my thoughts. Good times, organising the whirlwind of thoughts that I put down on paper. 𝗖𝘂𝗿𝗿𝗲𝗻𝘁 𝘀𝗶𝘁𝘂𝗮𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝘁𝗵𝗼𝘂𝗴𝗵𝘁𝘀 𝗼𝗻 𝘀𝗰𝗵𝗼𝗼𝗹 I am in a funny position. I have opportunities to go to the 'best' universities in the UK but I am not interested in that. They keep trying to get us to write what subjects you are passionate about and what you want to apply for at university. I'm just sitting there like: I'm not really passionate about these subjects (in a school setting) and I don't want to take them further. Dropping out calls me. I got dialled in for 6 months on GCSEs (UK exams you take at 16 years old) and basically smashed them. Everyone else was super happy about their results. I felt barely anything. I set a goal, I did well but it wasn't worth it. Play stupid games, win stupid prizes. I played that game and it wasn't worth it. I am not interested in playing the 'get good grades' game anymore. I know I could crush it again if I wanted to, but I just don't care. Motivation for school has plummeted since. I've been doing the minimal possible. Teachers are irritating, the work feels pointless. I have this urge, this energy to break out. There is a little bit of fear/ anxiety around dropping out but also excitement. It feels right. (with things like this I suppose there is always a bit of uncertainty. A defence mechanism. I suspect some it may also be down to not having completely broke the chains of my parents opinions.) It doesn't take tons of time (20 - 30 hours per week right now I think. They do like to randomly give more work though and I suspect it will increase around mock exams and the real exams. I do have data from the past few weeks to analyse so I will have a more accurate number) but still a distraction that gives no real benefit. The way I look at it, is it is probably worth working a few more hours (or even the same hours, J.O.B. depending) but actually at something where I'm learning and earning. (I will be able to use money to then buy back time that is currently used up - e.g. get food delivered, build home gym etc. Buy other things to increase productivity/ save time. more control around routine when I move out, softwares, VAs in the future idk).

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