Something that has been bothering me the most and made me quit 6 months ago (I'm back now tho) is my really bad fear of diving and just falling in general in comparison to every other goalkeeper I play or played with, especially because now I play indoor soccer which is on concrete instead of grass. The reason why this happens is because when I was around 3-4 years old I broke my right arm once because I fell while running and then at 5 years old I got a severe sprain on my left elbow by falling again, I'm 14 now but because of that I took literal weeks just to be able to do a low dive and split save comfortably on my strong side, but im starting to get burnt out again like I did when I quit 6 months ago. Does anyone have any tips on how to get over this?

So I just found out that when im playing with my friend or training solo, I suddenly have insane reflexes and shot stopping, but when im on my academy or playing in school I am worse than a beginner, and recently I got my first intercontinental ballistic missile shot right into my face during penalties on my academy (I got like 5 rockets shot down there but none in the face until now). And because of that, now not only am I horrible, but also terrified of the ball, no matter if the person is shooting from 5 meters away or extremely close and I end up almost getting my hands on the ball but then my body just instantly takes my hand back and raises my leg to save it instead, which results in the ball hitting the tip of my fingers (which is pretty painful) and my leg not going fast enough to block the shot. And this is really really bad for me because now training feels useless to me unless im learning new techniques, like the spread save, diving and etc, because only those arent affected when im playing on my academy/school