@Nathan Tchier 100% I'm not. I want to raise all my animals to eat so they have the best life possible and they won't know when I'll kill them ether so they'll be no fear before they die. I believe i have broke free from it and when I play it, it is for joy. I'm fighting with the fact that I can be of the world and enjoy it for what it is and I can be spiritual at the same time. I know some say you can't do both some say you can. How does that work with the movies now? Do you consciously watch it knowing what you're doing? I don't see it as loneliness to be fair, I just see it as I have all this knowledge that I want to talk about but know one cares lol so I need to start teaching it or try to speak up more with people around me. I've always been a lone wolf so that has never bothered me. I never eat junk food. I eat steak, milk, yoghurt, honey, butter every day, day in day out. I don't miss eating any other foods, I dont crave any other foods. Thats another massive benefit of the foods I eat. I eat to when I'm full, I don't think about it until I'm hungry again and the eat again, so I eat twice a day. How long have you been on this journey?